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I'm not dead yet. Just haven't been drawing...not really motivated. But side note on Not being dead yet, How do you handle the subject death? Just asking since this year has been special to me with like ten deaths of family friends, people I knew from school, or in family. Hitting the 10 death mark... Huzzah. I am not looking for sympathy, or "I am sorry for you" messages. I know how to handle the subject of death. Indulge my curiosity.

I know i don't update this much but i figure that people might want to hear going to school 6 months and an a month internship. Shortly after that one can have a job in the medical field. http://www.pacifictechnicalcollege.com/cms/ Currently i am in the Pharmacy technician classes an i find it very easy to learn and its quite enjoyable. Currently in my class there are only 3 students including my self. The Co founders are terrible at advertising for the school so my teacher, who is an awesome person, has asked us to advertise her class. I have been having a lot of fun in the class and so far things have seemed to of been shorter time then t

Hmm yeah well this morning i think i got a really bad sign of a break down/freak out. But couls any one explaine why i would not beable to move even tho i was willing my self to move my hand and it wasnt responding. Wasnt like it felt heavey, just couldnt move. Any ideas on what that might of been about please share or guess at. Cause its very disconsirting to be that detatched to my self, more so since im starting to only feel inklings of what i should act like which is general a start of a major break down on its way. But mostly just asking about why i might of not of been able to move when at school when i was consious.